Eating

This morning for breakfast I had 1 link of tofu breakfast sausage and 1 slice of toast. I feel so full that I feel fat and gross. The only time I feel good and cleansed is if I don’t eat. But every time I eat I feel gross and I spiral to “it’s no use”.

So many years of “not eating” have put me in this place. It sucks.

This was me right before I got pregnant with Ethan. This is me at a time when I about 1 meal a day. And I loved it.

But I know the truth now and I won’t go back to that. I am making progress. I am heading out now to go jogging while the kids ride their bikes along with me.

Couch to 5k – Day 7

Day 7. First, let me say: It was a glorious 58 degrees this morning.

The run was good. I struggled to get out of bed, so when I started my run, I was still in “I’m not awake” mode. Imagine my surprise when I realized I was starting longer intervals of running. And by “surprise” I mean “WTF?!?!”.

But after my original bout of “surprise” I realized how awesome it was that I was running longer. That I COULD run longer. And what a treat it was when I heard the little app voice that said “You are half way done” after only my second run! Perspective, people. It’s all about perspective.

Still haven’t given any thought to how I need to prep for winter. Have I mentioned how much I hate being cold? Nothing reduces me to a fit of tantrums like being cold. Suggestions are appreciated.

We had Michael Benevides in the office yesterday to give individual fitness consults to any employee who wanted it. I have been looking forward to that since I signed up. I am ready for that next step in nutrition and health. And was thrilled to have some input from him in particular.

Guess who missed her slot.

Yep. I was working on a project and forgot. Just plain forgot. So upset. I spent the whole rest of the day whining about it to everyone who walked toward me. And chased the ones down who walked away to whine to them too.

Happy Friday, everyone!